It is time for a bath with Lauren. They do not take baths every day, but more often then not. They play in the tub together with plastic cups and rubber toys. They splash, giggle, and wear big, wet smiles. The water is always warm and bubbly when they enter and gray and cloudy by the time they are done.
One bath she pretends she is drinking the dirty bath water with one of the cups. Young Lauren thinks her sister is swallowing, instead of secretly pouring it out, and she knows that. Lauren drinks cup for cup of the dirty bath water as she carries on the trick. She does not stop her. She does not want to help her little, naive, sister. It is wrong and she knows it, but continues.
Lauren vomits her dinner and dirty bath water the whole night. She is haunted by the moments she wanted bad things for her sister. The rest of her childhood she has a fear of throwing up.
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